I’m very excited right about now.
Tomorrow I get to move into my beautiful house that me and three of my friends rented! The whole moving part sucks real bad, but it will be so worth it! I will finally have my own room. Which I have not had since.. ohh last year. I had been living in a one bedroom apartment with three other girls. (The girls I will be moving in with tomorrow!) And it was very fun, but lord I have missed having my own room. When you have your own bedroom, it is so easy to take that privacy for granted! I cannot wait to decorate, and make the house a home for myself. I finally feel like a big girl! Not only that, I get to see and spend some time with a very cute boy on Friday who has been gone all week (which is pretty shitty); something else I am very excited for. :D
There is so much more I could blog about, but I feel that my tumblr is seen by so many people now-a-days, its hard for me to spill my guts on here as much as I used to. I have resulted to handwriting my personal stuff in a cute little journal. :) A trait I learned whilst I was studying abroad.
Anyways! Today was a day that started out pretty rough, and I was not the happiest of campers; and it turned around dramatically. A big thanks to the phone call I had with my mama. It’s funny, my mom always seems to subconsciously know when I’m in a crappy mood.. and at first I don’t want to talk, but she keeps pushing the issue until eventually I vent out everything that’s on my mind, and some how everything makes perfect sense, and I know what I need to do to make myself feel better. I got a pretty cool mom.
So many things in my life to be thankful for! Cheers loves!
Venting.
I hate having doubts. Especially about something you care a lot about. Something you have absolutely no control over. It’s driving me absolutely insane. Part of me simply wants to give up..but that just doesn’t seem logical for this situation. Deep down, I don’t want to give up, and I want to make what I want to happen, happen. But I still have no control over the situation. ARRRGG I’m so frustrated. I don’t like myself like this.. I really don’t.. It scares me. Ugh.
